I want to sleep but

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I want to sleep but

When I want to sleep
Demons of thoughts start crawling on surface of my brain
Emotions start flowing through the veins
Regrets stand in front of me and shine so brightly that blinds my vision
My body stretches and relaxes continuously
My heart starts demanding things which I can't afford
Stomach aches differently
Volume of music is hurting my ears
Every pore of my body is alive and in pain

I want to sleep
Sleep wants me to wrap in her arms
Give me warmth of peace
 But these demons start pushing me to the dark
Where the memories came one by one
Someone is calling me for mercy
Someone wants relief from me
Someone wants to hurt me again

Memories are coming one by one in an utter sequence wrapped in the emotions entangled with the regrets.
I still want to sleep but
Memories start bleeding
I want to ignore them and sleep
But
They took me to the old paths
Paths which I left because those paths did not bother me
Memories always took to tha paths where the situations compelled me to leave
However, I want to stay longer in those ways but I couldn't
Finally
 I resolved all
I want to sleep again
But
Brain works hard again
This time it takes stories with it
Stories of failure
Failure which brings guilt with it
I re burn in the fire of guilt
I blame myself again for failure
Then I tried again to sleep
So
I accpet my failures, my weaknesses and console my heart
I want to sleep but night is already over.
Bright sun is shining and the first beam of sunlight dissolved all.
Hello World 😇.

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