Mahie Blog

 Missing the Mess It's very true that every person has a different perspective of life and the struggles of their lives are different too. But sometimes I miss the old mess I used to be, the mess I became unexpectedly, and the mess I never wanted to be but I was. I miss that mess of my life when I get upset over something made in my head, something very distracting. Sometimes very focused sometimes very immature, Maybe old me is still alive in the corner of my heart, sitting silently afraid of the fears of future, afraid of people, afraid of the way people got changed. It's life but it is life. Sometimes you get opened to someone so much that you could not reopen like that again ever, even if you try. These bonds could be held between immature innocent kids who have not experienced detachment. Souls could bond again but minds could not. satisfaction or happiness On my to find my way out of this life, I have realized that love and satisfaction are two different things. We can be

A lot has changed in time, from January to July, I was trying to gather life together, and my writing skills are getting worse and my analytical skills too because I have opted a way out of it and that's a way of avoidance. I don't like to communicate my fears, my weaknesses, and my shortcomings and I just want to relive the life that remained in my bucket. Mostly I want to share my experiences and write about each and every moment, about my feelings but sometimes I dont have words. sometimes I don't have feelings and sometimes both.  I just want to post that blog to make my account relive and start breathing again. it's October now and a lot has passed, daily I have learned new values, sometimes I just have to say that this world is a chain of experiences and emotions. Sometimes your emotions dominate and similarly, sometimes you could have full control of your emotions. Sometimes you know that certain emotions can damage your peace but you do not stop letting them dis

 Sometimes rather most of the time, We can not free the person we loved, maybe because we do not love them the most or maybe we cannot love them the most. Because somewhere else someone either is making efforts to see us happy but we want to make others happy, we are not free. We are bound by the people who are making efforts for us, we are bound by the expectation they had already built for us, we are bound by the lives we were designed to live, we are bound by the paths we have already c hosed for ourselves. We can not feel the pain of someone we love and release their pain or help them. maybe this healing could hurt us too badly and break the beautiful bond of the expectations of some precious people we have already who made efforts too. At this time I think that the best solution is to release and move with the flow because you know when they g not in your control letting them go is the best way to stay positive and grow healthily. This is not the only thing rather we can not contr